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I am back. [20 Oct 2004|12:21am]
[ mood | content ]

Well it has been quite some time since I have updated this piece. A lot has happened since my last post but I'll just start off fresh tonight. Tonight I struggled through six and a half hours of public education. After that, Blane, Vic, Jeff and I went all the way to the Avalon to find out that the Death Cab show was sold out. After about an hour of hunting down scalpers, we got our tickets. Pretty Girls Make Graves opened and they were great. Death Cab was just as I had hoped, unreal and we met cool people. Everyone in Boston smells bad. We went home. The end.

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Words will try to break us down. Cloud our minds with waves of regret. [08 Aug 2004|11:23pm]
I stayed over Ciampa's house last night with DJ and Sean. We went to Bickford's at 2 AM in his fathers empty, black work van and saw some people at Dunkin Donuts. When we got in, I couldn't sleep at all so I left without telling anyone. I walked home and called Vanessa to talk to her about recent events and it did not go well and it was exactly what I expected. I will not be talking to her for a while. I stuck around to see if DJ was gonna call to pick me up for the barbeque and he never did so I hung around with Matt and his friends for a while. It was a good time. Me and a few kids jammed for a while at some kid from work's house in Malden or Melrose. It was great, we were sounding really good toward the end. We decided to meet up again sometime in the near future. New job at Best Buy starts a week from today. Thats it...
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Yes. [06 Aug 2004|04:03pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

So much has happened since the last time I have posted. For those that don't know, I will give you the abridged version. One night last week, I camped out for the grand opening of Krispy Kream with DJ, Joe, and Shubert and we eventually started talking to these girls from St. Mary's. I met one of the most influencial characters of my life, Bill. Lol I <3 Bill. We didn't sleep at all that night it was great. That night, we saw Anchorman for, thats right, the third time and I'm still not sick of it. Since then I've been to a few wiffle ball tournament games. Oh yea and I got a new job at Best Buy for $9.50 an hour which means I will be leaving Sears although I don't want to because I have some friends there and we have a great time working. Thats about it. Laterrr

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[31 Jul 2004|02:13am]
Went to work.  Hung out with people from Revere, most of them I've never met. Very good time.  Jenn and Amy are very cool ;)   Rescheduled my interview with Best Buy.  Word.  Got something on my mind that is making me crazy.  What else is new?  Thats it for now boys and girls.
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Stolen from a dead journal. [24 Jul 2004|05:00am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

>Relationship survey<

1. Are you currently dating anyone?: No
2. Are you currently interested in anyone?: Yes
3. If yes, what are the circumstances?: I don't know what that means.
4. Is he/she equally as interested?: I like to think so.
5. What was your long relationship?: 3 months.
6. Why was it ended?: Very stupid things happened.
7. Have you ever been in love?: No.
8. If yes, how did you know?: Eh.
9. How many guys/girls have you dated?: 5.
10. How many guys/girls have you kissed?: I think 9.
11. What do you look for in a guy/girl?: Cool/good looking? Same interests is cool.
12. When was your last date?: April or May.
13. Where was your last date?: I don't think I've ever been to one that wasn't at the movies.
14. What do you consider your worst quality as far as dating?: Ha they don't think I'm interested when I really am. Fear of rejection.
15. What do you consider your best quality as far as dating?: I don't think I have one.

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Great. [20 Jul 2004|11:25pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

Hilarious night. The whole day was great. I saw Anchorman for the second time with DJ and Sean. Crazy. Went to Circuit City to get Sean's girlfriend's deck installed. Went home and chilled for a while and right when I thought that the Salem girls weren't venturing to the wonderful world of Saugus, they did. Never fails to disappoint. Petey, Nicole, Kasey, and Derek were there and it was hilarious. We had nothing to do so Pete came up with a brilliant idea to take Derek's Santa Clause and Easter Bunny costumes and go boxing in the mall. Walked through the mall and everyone loved it. We took pictures with hott girls and threw each other down the escalator until mall security ruined the holiday spirit and started to sprint toward us. We ran for a while and stopped to piss them off. Kasey and Nicole were nowhere to be found so we screwed off the trespassing zone, ditched the costumes, and walked to Dereks. Kasey was pissed and I have yet to talk to her. Thats it. Laterrr.

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We meet again... [20 Jul 2004|01:06am]
[ mood | recumbent ]

So many things have happened since the last time I updated. The week I spent in Maine was great. Hung out with Jessica for 2 nights which was the most fun I've had in a while. Like whoa. DJ and Sean came up for the last night. It was fucking great. Bought tons or illegal things for no good reason. For example, a 400,000 volt tazer, chinese stars, 4 BB guns and violent smelling stink bombs. Went home the next day. HIng out with the Hussinator, DJ and Derek which always a good time. Played hardcore game of softball with madd heads and I'm still soar. Wow I'm a pussy. Anyway, I worked today for a little while and hing out with Matt after and we had a near death experience. Dickface tried to pass Maria's car as we were approaching a vigorous curve and had about 5-10 feet between us and another car in the other lane that we swurved in. It was fucking sick. That about wraps it up boys and girls. Later.

I think someone owes me an amazing comment and she goes by the name of Jystiner. No she doesn't.

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Peach Snapple [09 Jul 2004|11:13pm]
I bought a kick ass digital camera today, but due to my severe lack for knowledge of anything technologically related, I can't put pictures up. They're great pictures though, take my word for it. I'm leaving for Old Orchard tomorrow morning which should be pretty boring. Laterrr.
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[09 Jul 2004|03:19am]
And I'll sit and wonder,
Of every love that could've been.
If I'd only thought of something charming to say.
--Death Cab for Cutie


How sad.
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Word. [09 Jul 2004|12:26am]
[ mood | content ]

I had to set my alarm clock so that I wouldn't be late for work at 4:00 in the afternoon. God thats terrible. Anyway, work today was pretty good. I had to listen to my boss and Matt about my hair (dicks). They tried to involve that into every conversation they had with any customer/boss/fellow employee we talked to today by saying how I look like a preppy fag. (dicks lol) Most people liked it which was cool. Break today was hilarious. Went to the food court and we sat down with these random girls because Matt said he knew them even though he didn't lol. They were madd cool yo. Then we went to Brookstone and took off our name tags and pretended we worked there. That was cool until we were called ignorant little punks by some guy that worked there. We gave him a break and left. Work went good after that. Sold alot of expensive shit. After work, I just went home and packed for Old Orchard. Thats about it. Laterrr.

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Puzzled [06 Jul 2004|08:34pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

Some people are so hard to understand. I don't know whether to go out of my way to do something, or just let things happen. I have no idea... But I'm leaving Saturday for Old Orchard Beach with my family, some people are coming up to visit I believe which should be cool. I'm missing Derek's party and a day of work which could potentially mean my job. Oh well.

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Why hello. [06 Jul 2004|12:03am]
I don't think that I've ever laughed more than I have today. Work was actually fucking great it was weird. I woke up around 2:00 and ate fruit salad because thats all thats in my fridge. Jumped in my pool and off to work I went. I listened to my boss make fun of my hair for about 10 straight minutes and made my way down to the happenin' area known as Lawn and Garden. In the middle of a conversation I was having about guitars with Rob, the phone rings and he answers: "Sears fucking Lawn and Garder, this is fucking Rob speaking, can I fucking put you on hold?" I was laughing hysterically. Wow that was wonderous. Took a break with him and we met up with Vanesser. Watch out. Made plans with that crazy woman as we walked through every store in the mall. We walked past Jill as she was busy so I left her alone because I didn't want her to get in trouble. Drove around after work with Big V and went home in midst of a heated argument over something stupid. I've come to the conclusion that I cannot cartwheel no matter, even if I put my mind to it lol.
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[03 Jul 2004|10:49pm]
I think that I set my hopes to high. Either that or I did something really stupid and can't remember. Oh well, I'll pretend that I don't care even though I kinda do like I usually do.
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Tiresome [03 Jul 2004|04:18am]
[ mood | blah ]

It's 4:18 in the morning and I haven't slept yet and I probably won't until later tomorrow night. I'm tired and everything but I can't sleep at all. Maybe because I have a few things on my mind. Most likely. I have work at 7:45-4:00 which is horrible. My boss is coming back from his "injury" tomorrow in a wheelchair and thats the only thing that's keeping me from calling in sick. Poor little bastard...

I have 3 hours until work so I'll post my recap of the past few nights/problems I've been having for all you hardcore fans of my "life".... Lucky you...

Wednesday I worked for the better part of the day. It was actually a pretty fun day at work because crazy John and Brian were working and I haven't seen them for a while. They both got new jobs at Logan Airport where they actually make money. We sat around on the tractors and patio furniture and criticized bands and what not. Great. After that, Sean picked me up from work at 6 and we played wiffle ball with DJ and Joe. Kind of boring but what else is new? We probably went to Wendy's or some cow slaughtering place of that sort. God damn it, I wish I could be a freaking vegetarian without throwing up all of the time. I should check that out... That night I couldn't sleep as usual and as I was listening to this Death Cab song, it reminded me of this girl Kendra from Salem and I think she told me to write her while she was away. I couldn't really figure out what she was saying and when I got back from my away message she left. Its all gravy. So I wrote a letter and probably sounded like a total fool because it was like 3:30 in the morning and really had nothing to write about that would interest her at all I don't think. Ah I dunno what's going on with that whole scene, if there even is a scene.....

Thursday I slept until 2 in the afternoon. Woke up and showered. Played wiffle ball with my little brother and his friend because I realized that I don't have too much time to hang out with him and talk and stuff. I feel its my obligation to be here for him because my parents are really ignorant and not easy to talk to. So that went down for about an hour and a half or so. I needed to go to work 4-10. A rather interesting day of work. 3 college kids from the lawn and garden department got fired and nobody knows why. Its three days later and I still have no clue. This gives me a chance to make my move into the lawn and garden department and make comission. A couple friends work over there and they end up making about $19 dollars an hour. I wouldn't mind that at all. Other than that whole fiasco, (watch out) I was talking to Matt and Rob about starting a band. The idea is floating around and I think that it has a pretty good chance of happening because we're all really into indie/emo and it would work out great. Oh yea! I was about to leave work and none other than Vanessa came in and literally screamed at me and I honestly have no clue why. I've only known her for like 6 months but I considered her to be a good friend, nothing besides that. I don't know what she thought but this whole scene lead me to believe that she thought otherwise. The only thing that I could think of is when I was talking about this girl I just met not too long ago and I remember saying something along the lines of wanting something to happen between us because she's really cool, blah, blah. But I don't think that would have pissed her off because she talks about guys to me all the time. After that, Sean picked me up from work and we went to Derek's. Derek, Sean, DJ, Rachel, Jill, and Nicole were there and it was pretty fun. Went home and got no sleep as usual.

This Friday was the only Friday that I have had off from work in like 4 months. Sweet. I woke up around 2 to a phone call that was none other than Baldwin. He picked me up in Sean's car and we hung out at Sean's for a while and played MVP. Derek, Jill, and Nicole came by in the midst of a heated argument between me and Sean about Darryl Strawberry. Yes thats right, Darryl Strawberry. It was hilarious. First of all, its safe to say that he was absolute trash the majority of his career. With that being said, he thinks of him as Jesus Christ and the whole night I wouldn't let it go. I asked if we could go to Strawberry's to buy Warped Tour tickets and bought a Strawberry shortcake ice cream. I was subconscienciously agreeing with him I guess lol. I think I'm going to see fireworks in Lynn tomorrow if DJ wants to because she asked me to go and I haven't seen her in a while so that would be cool. Sean leaves tomorrow morning, actually in about three hours for Florida..... leaving the car to DJ for 10 days which should be some good times.


If you read this entire entry, see me for your prize.

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[02 Jul 2004|12:05am]
Today was great.
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[30 Jun 2004|01:43am]
My eyes on her lips and her finger on the trigger. Kill my regret. Let's park over in an empty lot. Lets stare at the stars. Let's forget everything just for tonight. Maybe someday.
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[27 Jun 2004|12:54am]
I hope she doesn't forget me.
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This is Today. [22 Jun 2004|11:33pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Woke up at 10. Work at 11:30 was horrible so I left an hour early and went home to play wiffle ball/sleep. Played wiffle ball/slept. Some random kid whos s/n is EuphaniaSi or something pissed me off when I woke up; tried to tell me that The Velvet Revolver is better than Weezer. Psst. Sean came by and we voyaged to the Palcynzski residence and watched Once Upon A Time in Mexico. Great. Followed that up with a trip to Wendy's. I'm writing an effing letter at the time and have no idea what the hell to write about. I am gazing at an empty piece of college ruled paper while listening to Guns n Roses/Weezer/Remember Maine/Straylight Run/Evergreen Terrace/Minus the Bear. Interesting combination. Good freaking night.

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Damn. [21 Jun 2004|11:55pm]
[ mood | drained ]

I put it on my fucking computer desk and I lost it. Major disappointment

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[19 Jun 2004|06:01pm]
[ mood | sad ]

Best moment of the day: two hot girls asking me and matt for our numbers at pacsun.
Worst moment of the day: waking up at 7:30 at husseys
Major disappointments: Salem girls not coming to Saugus.
Word of the day: regret
I hate: working
I love: Jenn when shes not being a bum at work.
Thoughts of the day: Why don't you just ask Jenn?
I wish: you were here
I want: to sleep

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